Cyberstalking domestic violence survivors are suffering beyond the crime

“Cyber stalking & Domestic Violence”

Larimer county, USA. According to the local newspaper, Larimer county has a high number of Criminal Domestic Violence cases. Even concluded that one of them ended fatality. Our local Police department unwilling to take these Mandatory Criminal NO CONTACT ORDER OF PROTECTION against perpetrators, has victims of Domestic Violence and Intimate partner violence. Leaving those who are vulnerable, facing economic, social, and personal vulnerabilities left in more fear, and even greater concern for their safety, welfare and well being. As well as concern for their families, children and anyone close to them.

Last year 2017, I reported to police, that I was very concerned about my safety and wellbeing. Because my spouse at the time, had been GPS locating me, since I left him in early March. By the end of May, I had been located at least 3 times, that I’m aware of. Even with all my locations turned off on all my devices.

The day I was to meet the officer, I woke up 10 minutes before hand. So I called dispatch, to see about rescheduling for the afternoon. Requested the officer call me back. Instead moments later he showed up at my front door, uninvited. As I greeted him, his opening statement was, “is this about the incident with the Sheriffs office?” I responded by saying, no.

I am suffering from PTSD and CHRONIC ANXIETY. The morning time, is the hardest time of the day. I am slow to wake up, and cannot handle to much the first couple of hours of the day.

This officer clearly had another agenda, other than, to protect and serve. Little did I know, my former spouse had made statements to the Sheriffs office, that I was the perpetrator, who was assaulting him. Saying I have hit him with a closed fist, bruising him. and on, and on, and on…. blah, blah, blah.

I have learned this year that I was married to and living with a classic narcissist. I had no idea that exactly that meant, until gaining the understanding, that the classic narcissist is out for self preservation, at the same time, taking down their loved ones. The goal is to destroy them by complete character assassination, verbal assaults, psychological torture, and deformation, attempting to make theirs believe that they are the crazy one.

Well it took the officer 93 days to finally tell me, “GPS locates are not a violation of the mandatory criminal NO CONTACT ORDER OF PROTECTION against my perpetrator. Only after I had left several messages and emails, needing to know what was being done. The officer called me, only after I got his supervisor involved. I felt as though I was a victim of violent crime, I was not being heard. I believe, ” having NO CONCERN FOR MY SAFETY AND WELL BEING. ” No in fact a very different story, I was being interrogated, ” as if, I were the perpetrator. ” If my former spouse ever had sustained any injuries, in contact with me. ” It would have been in SELF DEFENSE, protecting myself from him. He had assaulted me 3 physically times during our marriage. Almost daily verbal assualts, and hours of interrogation sessions. Convinced that I was sleeping around on him. Which was nearly impossible, since we spent about 98 percent of each day together.

I learned, ” Love is blind. ” I married him, because I loved him. He is a man suffering from a broken heart. Wanting and starving to be loved. Then when someone comes along, and falls in love with him, he rejected the love. Because to reject me, believing the lies his mind made up. His mind also convinced that it would be less pain, if “he rejected me first before I rejected him.” Making it impossible to love him.

#Survivor2Warrior